It was a day just like any other day . Same routine but something was not right . Something was amiss . I did not realize what . Something happened at night, some thoughts came to my mind . I tried my best to put myself to sleep but in vain .
Things were running through my mind at a breath taking speed . Something that has always troubled me was back again. This time with full force . I wonder why the thought of losing someone troubles me all the time .
Giving it a thought , I realize that you are scared of losing someone when you love them , when you care for them . Now the question comes up as what love has to do with it . There lies the crux of the problem -LOVE .
What is this stupid feeling ? Or is it just the wonderful effect of n number of chemicals running across our bodies . No one knows . This thing called love makes you want to do things , makes you feel good . It brings out the best in you . It spins you around . A person becomes a complete nut if he or she in the clutches of this wonderful disease . No one understands what it is but I think it is a beautiful feeling. Something that makes life worth living . Every person experiences it some time in his life .
Some are lucky in love , others are not . Those who are not are the ones who see the flip side of this lovely emotion . Something so beautiful can cause so much pain one cannot imagine .
It can create havoc in life . It causes extreme pain , a type of pain which one can not describe , one feels helpless and heartbroken . You are lost completely . You lose the power of thinking . You feel confused , angry , defeated as if the whole world has come to and end . It feels like a dark tunnel with no light at the other end . You feel as if there is no trust in the world and life is not worth living .
But , there is a choice one can make even if one is completely lost .
Choices being : first to fight it out , and be strong enough to defeat your defeat and come out as a winner even though one is not and be happy.
Second to succumb to the helplessness and live life in complete darkness .
It is this choice that decides your faith , that creates a difference between living life to the fullest or living for the sake of living .
Though the pain never goes , it stays there in some corner of the wounded heart , the heart which is broken , with all the pieces taped up , yet the fight goes on ……….the fight to live again , to smile again , to be happy again and to love again .
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Life
I sit and sometimes wonder what exactly Life is , but all I understand is that it is something complicated. It seems to be a combination of trials , tribulations , aspirations , ambitions , highs , lows , pain , sorrow , happiness and satisfaction where we have a right to choose but the choice is not exactly ours .
All the threads are there with someone else and we are just puppets who go on living , feeling, loving ,winning , losing , smiling and crying . We go through the same things in Life from the time we open our eyes to the time we close them , yet for all individuals these feelings or rather I should say experiences are completely new.
Strange puppets we are, we have a heart to feel and a mind to think . We think , we desire , we choose but do we always get what we want , there lies the irony , the irony called Life .
Some of us our lucky and do get what we want . Others are not so lucky but Life has surprises in store for everyone , it takes away something and gives u something else . We just need to understand the value of what we have . That’s the most difficult thing to do . Letting go and accepting something else . But once you let go you are free , free as a bird , you feel great and see everything differently , you accept change , the newness in Life and you are truly happy . Then again you want something else and the cycle continues . This goes on till the end comes . This is the vicious circle of Life , the Life we all live , but this is something that drives us ,takes us higher , makes us stronger , changes us so that we can be better persons tomorrow .
All the threads are there with someone else and we are just puppets who go on living , feeling, loving ,winning , losing , smiling and crying . We go through the same things in Life from the time we open our eyes to the time we close them , yet for all individuals these feelings or rather I should say experiences are completely new.
Strange puppets we are, we have a heart to feel and a mind to think . We think , we desire , we choose but do we always get what we want , there lies the irony , the irony called Life .
Some of us our lucky and do get what we want . Others are not so lucky but Life has surprises in store for everyone , it takes away something and gives u something else . We just need to understand the value of what we have . That’s the most difficult thing to do . Letting go and accepting something else . But once you let go you are free , free as a bird , you feel great and see everything differently , you accept change , the newness in Life and you are truly happy . Then again you want something else and the cycle continues . This goes on till the end comes . This is the vicious circle of Life , the Life we all live , but this is something that drives us ,takes us higher , makes us stronger , changes us so that we can be better persons tomorrow .
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