Day before yesterday -- thinking cap on .

It was a day just like any other day . Same routine but something was not right . Something was amiss . I did not realize what . Something happened at night, some thoughts came to my mind . I tried my best to put myself to sleep but in vain .
Things were running through my mind at a breath taking speed . Something that has always troubled me was back again. This time with full force . I wonder why the thought of losing someone troubles me all the time .
Giving it a thought , I realize that you are scared of losing someone when you love them , when you care for them . Now the question comes up as what love has to do with it . There lies the crux of the problem -LOVE .

What is this stupid feeling ? Or is it just the wonderful effect of n number of chemicals running across our bodies . No one knows . This thing called love makes you want to do things , makes you feel good . It brings out the best in you . It spins you around . A person becomes a complete nut if he or she in the clutches of this wonderful disease . No one understands what it is but I think it is a beautiful feeling. Something that makes life worth living . Every person experiences it some time in his life .

Some are lucky in love , others are not . Those who are not are the ones who see the flip side of this lovely emotion . Something so beautiful can cause so much pain one cannot imagine .
It can create havoc in life . It causes extreme pain , a type of pain which one can not describe , one feels helpless and heartbroken . You are lost completely . You lose the power of thinking . You feel confused , angry , defeated as if the whole world has come to and end . It feels like a dark tunnel with no light at the other end . You feel as if there is no trust in the world and life is not worth living .

But , there is a choice one can make even if one is completely lost .

Choices being : first to fight it out , and be strong enough to defeat your defeat and come out as a winner even though one is not and be happy.
Second to succumb to the helplessness and live life in complete darkness .

It is this choice that decides your faith , that creates a difference between living life to the fullest or living for the sake of living .

Though the pain never goes , it stays there in some corner of the wounded heart , the heart which is broken , with all the pieces taped up , yet the fight goes on ……….the fight to live again , to smile again , to be happy again and to love again .